Posted on May 17, 2012 | 0 comments
You said I probably shouldn’t call, but you didn’t say I couldn’t write. Don’t worry though, this will be the last you will hear from me. I don’t want to interfere in any way, but there are a few things I wanted to tell you.
First of all, thank you for the time you spent with me; the long talks we had, the movies we watched – parts of, the hot chocolate, the creek, and the fallen tree. You helped me to focus anew on the things that are really important to me, and you did that by being patient and understanding. I came to look forward to each time I heard from you, and to hope each day that I would see you. I’m not sure just how that happened, but I couldn’t stop it.
Right now my thoughts and feelings are pretty confused, as I smile each time I think of you, of your laughter, and the smell of your hair in my face. And yet each smile brings the sadness of knowing those things are all in the past for me. I really just wanted to let you know that I will always be grateful for the short, but very sweet time we spent with each other. You brought a serenity to my life that had been missing for a long time, and a reassurance that there are those who are very special. I sensed it when we first met, and I wish now that our first meeting could have been at a different time; a time when there may have been possibilities.
I really do wish happiness for you, as you are a special person who deserves the best. I do wish I could have played a part in that happiness, but perhaps that was not meant to be. Take care of yourself, and should you ever need anything at all, you know I’m here for you. You touched my life with a gentleness that is rare in this world, and I hope I have in some way touched yours. I will think of you often, and I hope that if you think of me from time to time, you will remember those very special moments, and smile.
Most people believe we may only sense the presence of angels, but we are not given the sight with which to see them. Please always remember, that during the time we spent together, I have seen my angel. It was she who could not see me.
One day soon, I think I’ll spend some time on a mountain, listening to the wind. And I’ll think of a little girl with strawberry-blonde hair and big blue eyes. Maybe, if I stay there long enough, the wind will bring to me the sweet smell of her mother’s hair.
Please hold on to the memories, and don’t let time take them away. I will miss you.
(There is one other, very important thing, I wish I could tell you. Maybe someday. I think you may already know).
Comments: My husband wrote this before we ever started dating! He had been dating someone else when we first met and then later, when he was single, I was involved in a pretty unhealthy relationship and not available! We became friends, good friends, but I had work to do to get out of the unhealthy relationship I was in and had asked him for space…a couple days later he left this for me at my work. This was in the fall of 1996 – we married one year later!